a guiltless twisted lie

ya., aku ingat lagu ini, dan semuanya. .

more than words. .

sebuah lagu yang cukup lama . .
tapi tetap ada di benakku. .
6 tahun yang lalu. .
anak 10 tahun yang tidak tau apa" tentang cinta, tetapi sudah merasakan cinta sejati. .
walaupun tidak secara langsung. .
terinspirasi oleh judul lagu itu, ku coba untuk mengungkapkan segalanya. .
mencoba untuk menorehkan segalanya pada hitam diatas putih untuk diberikan kepadanya. .
tapi, ya dia tak pernah mengerti . .
tapi memang benar jika cinta tak harus memiliki. . .
masih ku ingat kalimat terakhir surat itu. .


you are more than words inside my heart. . .



-naf-

well, its take long time for me to choose the best tittle for this one. .
but, i'll find it later. .

here's the story begins. .


tonight, i'm thinking about something that never gonna have an ending if we talk about it over and over. .
it always here, in our mind, or even in our soul. .
the thing that sometimes make us happy, but sometimes make us sad. .
sometimes make us cry, but sometimes make us laugh. .
everybody have it, or ever felt this feeling. .
its called love. .

when i opened the dictionary and looking for the mean of love, it said that love is a deep affection or fondness. .
and also like this :
1. A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. A feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child or friends.



but, i have different reality for my life. .
it just like the opposite of everything that have been written before. .
i never feel love. .
cause nobody here to share love with me. .
yeah, there's nobody. .
im just the ugly dummy freaky person. .
that have nobody here. .
my bestfriend is the loneliness. .
my place is the darkness. .
and my destiny is loveless. .
its a worst faith, isn't it ?
fortunately, im the one and the only who felt this one. .
who has to face my world, face my faith with nothing. .

maybe its the story of surrender-ness . .
or someone who give up for everything. .
but actually no it isn't . .


i wrote this story to tell you, all of you. .
that you are have some purpose to live. .
you have a goal that you must achieved. .
you have something to do. .
and you've got to struggle. !
you must reach out your dreams. !
go get what have you dreaming for, what you have waiting for. .
you are more lucky than me. .
cause im useless. .
i mean nothing in this world. .
and only me who have to feel this one. .
so raise your dreams. .
spread your love to everyone. .
believe that you can get what you want. .
and you'll be the one who's winning. .


be the best !